DO NOT BRING CHILDREN IN THIS LIFE IF YOUR MARRIAGE IS TOXIC
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I will never be ashamed of the way I love. I love wholeheartedly and passionately and that is a good thing. I will not change my free and forgiving heart because of past circumstances. I will not punish myself for my openness and willingness to love others. I will not apologize for how I love.
„Love more. Give more.“
You don‘t have to change. When you love more than the other side, it‘s okay. Don’t feel sad about it. Never change. I would rather be the side who love more, give more and try harder, than the side who do nothing but expect everything. You know why?
Because when it’s over, you‘ll never look back again. You’ll accept that it isn’t right for you and you’ll go your way. But the other side will questioning themselves in the future if they would have give more, would this change things. They will have a ‚what if‘ in their head, everytime they see you or they miss you.
But you darling; you will live happier and welcome the better things, that will happen to you. Because you were on the better side, you deserve it. Don’t ever change.
December 30, 2017
Anyways I wanna be in love with someone who is equally as in love with me and I don’t want it to just be love I want us to be best friends and to adore and respect each other and to fit together like puzzle pieces and tbh I have faith I’ll find that
If I don’t make you happy, I want you to go. If you don’t get the biggest feeling of relief when my name comes up on your screen, I want you to go. If arguing with me and thinking about even a chance of losing me doesn’t fuck up your breathing pattern, then I want you to go. If there’s the slightest bit of doubt that I’m the one for you, I want you to fucking go. If waking up to missed calls from me because you’ve ignored me the night before doesn’t make you feel the lowest you felt, then I want you to go. If I take up too much of your time and you don’t feel like you’re doing the things you want to, then I want you to go. If the thought of my skin touching someone else’s and my voice saying another name doesn’t make you clench your teeth and fill with resentment, I want you to go. If you’ve said sorry so many times that even your subconscious knows, I want you to go. If the only time you ever say you’re in love with me is either when my clothes are off or I tell you I want to leave, I want you to go. If you can look at me in the eyes and tell me you didn’t fuck her, I want you to please go. If you’re physically capable of letting me stay up all night and wait for you while you go and do something that you know will make me feel less of myself then I want you to go.
and if you can’t love me enough to go, I get it completely.
I’m so tired of all of these words. If you miss me, come see me. If you’re sorry, show me. If you love me, then be there for me. You can say whatever you’d like, it’s not hard. The showing up part is what is hard, it’s actual the following through with what you say is what matters the most. Words without actions to back them up mean nothing to me.
“The world does not console me, does not hold me,”
— Birhan Keskin, from And Silk and Love and Flame: Poems; “Water,”
“If there’s no love, what then?”
— Leonardo da Vinci, The Notebooks of Leonardo da Vinci (via books-n-quotes)
“I find the best way to love someone is not to change them, but instead, help them reveal the greatest version of themselves.”
— Steve Maraboli